I took him home with me that night. I had been staying in what could only be described as a hippie den for the last few days. The kids that originally lived there had been abandoned by their mother(much the same as myself)and had to sell drugs in order to make a living. The boy was large and extremely immature, but he had crush on me, as did several of the other people in the house.

He informed me on the walk home that my boyfriend was out with his girlfriend right now, which didn't surprise me. I had suspected for awhile now that they were more than "best friends", but I didn't say this to Jay. Even though I loved him, I knew it would be immoral for the words to come from me.

Instead, I settled on the idea that I was going to leave them alone. I was leaving as soon as I could, and I was ready to let Jay be happy. I had gone to my dad's house on one of the days I didn't document, and he told me I should let him go. I thought he was right.

When we got there(after insulting eachother all the way home), we went into in empty room where my friend had asked me to watch her baby. He started flirting with me, and attempting to fight me like we used to do. I couldn't believe it. Was he flirting because he still loved me or because he was mad at Stacy? My heart begged me not to say it, but my head told me it was Stacy.

When the night had waned and the morning was drawing close, the only awake people were sitting in David's room. Most of them had fallen asleep, but me and Jay sat on the little couch next to the bed.

" Don't leave me." I whispered to him, " If you do, David will ask me to sleep with him." I meant it, and he stayed with me as everyone fell asleep. I was terrified of David's crush on me. He was a huge guy and I was crashing in his house, how was I supposed to escape that?

Still, I loved Jay. I tried hard not to cry as he fell asleep sitting up, because I knew he didn't want to lay with me. He was afraid to do something that would make Stacy dump him, and I could plainly see that in his face. I fell asleep eventually, tears struggling down my face.